Thinking Out Loud

September 21, 2014

Climbing the Ministry Ladder

Filed under: Church, ministry, writing — Tags: , , , , , — paulthinkingoutloud @ 6:25 am

Conrad sat in the living room staring at the “yearbook” that Central Church had given him when he resigned several years ago. Well, “resigned” wasn’t exactly the right word, but other than that, there was nothing about his time pastoring the 700-member church that did not evoke fond memories.  He was only the third pastor Central had ever known, and while he did not experience the rapid growth of his predecessors, he’d seen the church grow from 556 members to 703.

Not that it was about numbers.  Well, maybe it was. His first church was 168 members, but he was only there for three years. Then he jumped at the opportunity to go to a 289 member church, where he stayed for five years. Next, he entered a four year term with the 374 member — oh, my goodness; it really was about numbers; he couldn’t believe he had remembered all that detail.

Short StoriesBut Central was the pinnacle as it turned out, twelve years, and average weekend attendance just under a thousand in two services, with 703 of those people full members.

And then he got sent to East Valley on an interim pastor assignment, that ended up lasting six years. Smaller numerically. A little backward culturally. He was balding now and the 414-member church was an older demographic that signified, along with his own age, the numbers might start dropping. And then it did.

Before he knew it, he was doing a meaningless job in the district office waiting out the years to retirement. He had ridden the entire parabolic curve of church size.

He put the yearbook down and sighed.

“You’d better get ready to go;” his wife Carla admonished from the kitchen, “The service at Whispering Willows starts at 2:00 PM.”

So this is what it comes to, he thought.  Sunday afternoon chapel services in the local seniors’ home.

The pianist assigned from the Salvation Army didn’t know any of the hymns he’d bookmarked. “We tend to do Army music;” she confessed, “But I can do Amazing Grace and How Great Thou Art.”

“That’s all they ever want to sing anyway;” Conrad told her, and at 1:55 Whispering Willows staff started wheeling in the dozen-and-a-half women and three men who had signed up to go to chapel that week, plus two staff. Okay, a few of the residents used walkers, but he noticed that everybody that week had some type of appliance necessary to get them around.

At 2:00 he opened in prayer.  At 2:01 they sang How Great Thou Art. At 2:05 they sang Amazing Grace. At 2:08 he asked the pianist if she would play a little number from her Salvation Army hymnal. She gladly obliged, but the tune was unfamiliar and the melody was incomprehensible. But now it was 2:10.

Conrad checked his watch again. These services ran an hour, usually 40 minutes of singing and a 20 minute message. He knew he needed to stretch, so he asked if anyone had any prayer requests. “Just put your hands up.”

Surprisingly a woman in the second row did just that. He nodded toward her to share anything with the group and she said, “This isn’t the dining room.”

“No it isn’t;” Conrad replied.


More silence. He noticed the ticking of a mantle clock he’d never noticed before. Things had never been this quiet.

“You know;” the retired pastor said, “I come here each month and I’ve never really told you much about myself, so before I share today’s scripture reading and message, perhaps I should share my story.”

So he spoke about his call to ministry late in high school, and how he had gone off to his denomination’s Bible college, and how he graduated and started climbing the ministry ladder. The problem was, as he had done before leaving for Whispering Willows, he was sharing more about the metrics of the various churches than about anything else that had happened in those various communities.

There was no story about Fred, or Jill, or Michael, or Jennifer, or anyone else. It was about the 168 and the 289 and the 374 and the 703 — there’s the high point again — and down to the 414. There was no reference to Carla standing by him in all those years in ministry, or raising a daughter and two sons in those various churches.

And then Conrad stopped. He had been listening to his own story. And he realized that it sounded pathetic.

It wasn’t that all he cared about were the numbers; it’s that he was bitter about never again getting the adrenaline rush associated with being able to speak to a thousand people each weekend. About being bounced down to a smaller church. And then left to deteriorate in a useless administrative position in the district office.

Another resident raised a hand, this time one of the men.

“You left out a number;” he said; “22. There’s twenty-two of us here, twenty-four if you count yourself and the woman who can’t play the piano.” (Of course he had miscounted by one, but…)

“Well actually;” he said, trying to do some damage control, “I think she did those hymns really well, she just doesn’t know the ones that are in your book.”

“Well I grew up Salvation Army, so hey, Miss, do you know Thou Christ of Burning, Cleansing Flame?”

“I don’t think we know that–” he started to say, but the pianist suddenly lighted up and launched into a rather rousing introduction, uncovering previously hidden keyboard skills, and the man stood to his shaking feet and in a loud and clear voice sang verse after verse.

As it turned out the song had a hook, a line that repeated constantly and by the 4th verse, all the residents were singing. Singing loudly, “Send the fire, Send the fire, Send the fire.”

By now it was 2:40 and he was back on schedule.

He read the text for the message, a sermon from the files of the glory days at Central Church, slightly shortened to fit the 20-minute window. In his mind he was back there. Two services. A thousand people every weekend.

One of the two staff members held up a cardboard sign that said “One Minute Left.” He thanked everyone for coming and gave a short benediction.  The staff members started getting ready to pull wheelchairs out of rows and into the hallway.

“Wait a minute! Stop!” yelled the man who had introduced the last song into the service mix; “That number you forgot. We aren’t 703 members, but there’s twenty-two of us, and we’re the best damn twenty-two people you’ve got right now.”

Conrad looked deep into the man’s eyes, and then noticed the smile.

And then he smiled back.

And then time froze and the staff stopped moving wheelchairs and everyone waited for Conrad to say something in return, except he couldn’t think of anything. Nothing at all. So he said the first words that popped into his head.

“This isn’t the dining room.”



  1. The title of this post made me click away, then I returned to leave this reply, a reply only to the title, “Climbing the Minstry Ladder”:
    I think the title captures all that is wrong with “religion.” God isn’t about ladder climbing, unless it is to climb DOWN to reach those at the bottom. When Christians, and Christian leaders, are ready to do away with ladders, and ladder climbing, as if there is somewhere better to reach, maybe then Christianity will be meaningful to the unreached, who are likely unseen from those looking up toward the next rung as they climb some false man-created ladder. Ladders have nothing to do with God. Now, I will get off my soap box and read your post….

    Comment by MJ — September 21, 2014 @ 1:31 pm

    • Exactly. The story is based loosely on a conversation I had with someone who has since passed away. It’s important to note that as the story begins, even as he should be getting ready for the 2:00 PM service, Conrad is sitting in his living room recalling past “glory days.” It preoccupies his thoughts in his living room, and then, as he retells the story, he relates it all in terms of church size.

      There is a sense in which the character on whom Conrad is based was perplexed by not being offered even larger churches in the latter years of ministry life. But then you could argue that if the ministry priorities were all backwards, perhaps that’s why the latter part of his career found him in the “railroad siding” of the district office doing mundane administrative tasks.

      When he finally prepares to preach, he’s using a recycled sermon from his peak days in ministry and figuratively closing his eyes pretending he’s back there, instead of making eye contact with the people who God has given him to minister to and serve that day.

      Comment by paulthinkingoutloud — September 21, 2014 @ 2:21 pm

  2. This story was written in advance of the September 21st publish date, but as it turns out, this article also appeared on the same day.

    Comment by paulthinkingoutloud — September 21, 2014 @ 8:13 pm

  3. Oh yes, that systemic ministry ladder. The apostle Paul taught everything he could, did everything he could to help men stay off the ladder. He would “rather die than give up the boast” that he ministered “free of charge”. 1 Cor. 9. and many more strong statements of “refusing the right to pay”. The best exegetical skills only seem able to throw Paul’s teaching in the circular file with one tweak of the text or another. That ladder is very popular even today. It is very closely guarded and protected specially on ministry ladder blogs. Back in my college days I felt that call from God to get on the ladder. But while in school I realized that was not a call from God. It was merely an emotional response to pleas of men to follow their tradition. After two years on the ladder I got off. A year of jubilee that was and every year since. My heart is sad for those who cling to the ladder, and even sadder still for those when they are told with the scriptures that their ladder is leaning against the wrong wall. I hope these comments are considered “value-added” but I don’t know the list of approved values. I may have severely burned up someones fuse.

    Comment by T Aagard — September 30, 2014 @ 3:58 pm

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